caution: shallow water. no diving.

i went for a walk today- around the lake in my hometown- solo. the solidarity was nice considering my mood hasn't been entirely friendly or worthy of company lately. the sun picked up my spirit and the view was amazing. the waves were tremendous- and the wind made my legs work twice as hard... which is nice for a change.

the lake appears to be full of silt today because of the mixing of the waves. if you look across instead of down it is blue and white from the crests.

i saw an old classmate of mine. he was sitting on a secluded bench, looking out. i'm not sure if he saw me but it is certainly possible. i heard that he went bankrupt, dropped out of school, and has been hanging out instead of experiencing and living life. i feel like i'm hanging out this summer. i didn't look or acknowledge him. why? because i'm shy. because, from what i remember of him, he probably wouldn't care if i had said hi or not. because i'm not old enough to brush back everything else including my pride, desire to be liked, and desire to be distant. i should have said something.

there are retired men fishing off the grade (the part of the lake that was built right through the lake so there is water on both sides of road). i like to think of them as fishermen but really they are probably just there to get out of their house, watch the people walking and biking, and enjoy nature. i smiled at one of them and said hi.

it was humid and warm but i wasn't uncomfortable. i put on my music and picked up the pace. i made it all the way around without getting run over, yelled at, or sunburned. it was a pleasant walk despite the blisters on my feet and turbulence in my heart.

i need to either move away soon or start getting reacquainted with past acquaintances. i need to get out more often. perhaps the weather will be nice again tomorrow.