overwhelmed and underwhelmed

i've been noticing lately that all of my days mesh into one long day.
i wake up. i watch er reruns while eating a bfast of cinnamon life cereal (no milk, of course). i make sure my cell phone is on and ready for all of the day's interview calls. i clean. i cook. i exercise. i surf for jobs. i apply to jobs. i read. i sleep. i wake up again.

i shouldn't complain. who wouldn't want a summer off? i haven't had a summer off since freshmen year of high school. its just that i'm broke, bored, and panicking that it is practically the middle of the summer and i'm still unemployed. oh my. so i've turned down 2 jobs? big deal. i'm waiting for the good one.... or at least the one i can feel comfortable doing.

i should just enjoy this time-learn how to be extremely frugal- and stop complaining. wow, it seems like that is all i do. i need an attitude adjustment. things could be so much worse for me. i just need to ride out this summer and be grateful.

eventually i will get a job. eventually i will be able to afford an apt. eventually i will be on my own. eventually my days will get shorter.
and things will be ok.