all mixed up

this morning i started freaking out. after the noon hour, i was panicking. during band, i was calm/cool/collected.... actually, i tend to be spastic during rehearsal- i try to crack jokes, make puns, and sing awkward little songs while trying to teach. after band, i was confident and enjoying myself.

i love teaching lessons- i feel like i'm getting somewhere when i work with small groups. 4 of my trumpet guys begged to have a longer lesson because they like it better than going to study hall. isn't that crazy? i told them i'm going to make them play trumpet quartets and they didn't really seem to rebel. after that lesson i had a jazz tenor sax lesson that was amazing. its fun to have students who get excited about playing music. especially when we are sight reading - its like christmas- opening a new piece of music and discovering whats inside. these students actually kind of freaked out when they started playing these pieces. it was exciting and uplifting for me.

so in one day i was incredibly overwhelmed and incredibly uplifted. i guess that's how teaching is. i'm learning to work through these crazy emotions and to not let them take hold of my life. i don't want to always look on the negative things in my life. i want to be happy and sometimes you just have to choose to be happy- and sometimes you have to wait to be happy.

tomorrow is friday. and you know what that means.... casual friday!

i'm going home tomorrow for my niece's dedication at church. i can't wait to see her in alisa's baptismal gown. it was fun to see my siblings and my old baptismal gowns the other day. i'm so happy my mom saved them! i just know kamryn is going to look so cute!