i just shouldn't be singing.

my rock 'n roll history class asked me what bob dylan is doing these days. i told them he is still touring. i told them i wanted to go to berlin to visit a friend and see bob play. i told them i missed a concert in minneapolis because of parent teacher conferences; that i have a friend there too. someone said 'you have friends everywhere' and i was caught thinking about how young these people are. i don't think they yet understand that there are so many possibilities in life. it's both exciting and sad to think of how much these people will change. change is good.

two girls i've been friends with forever were planning on coming over and spending the weekend with me. i found out yesterday that one can't come because of work and the other is checking to see if she can still come. i'm disappointed because i was looking forward to seeing them. i was looking forward to spending some time with people i love and care about and who i can relate to. maybe i'll hop in the car and take a drive to see them. i'm still trying to decide if i should stay in all weekend and relax or visit people and be extremely busy all weekend.

today i had to teach the 6th grade choir. they were out of control. it made me think that i shouldn't ever teach choir. it made me think that i shouldn't teach middle school. it made me happy that i teach high school.

yesterday my principal came to observe me. he didn't let me know ahead of time that he was coming. i guess we're just running out of time. i don't mind being observed. they don't pick you apart here- not like at school. i think things went well, although i don't know if it really mattered. i'm pretty sure i'll have a job next year... hopefully.

next year is going to be different. i'm a little bummed about it. i've had a great first year with my colleagues. now that the schools are joining, people are being shuffled around. it will be fine.

i need to do my taxes.

i have been oil painting lately. i find it really relaxing although i really don't know what i'm doing.

my birthday was last week.

i went to a bible study on monday night. the topic was about being a mother. they seemed to think that being a teacher is like being a mother. i couldn't really relate. i'm not a mother. i don't know what it is like to be one. i felt extremely young all evening. i enjoy the people at my bible study. i don't express myself well around them. i think about what i'm saying and i realize i'm really young. oh well.