not exactly well-adjusted

today i went to my first year teacher mentoring meeting. i was late.... of course, but thankfully i wasn't the last to arrive.
what did i learn during this meeting:
1. i have to pay another 220 dollars and i'm not entirely sure why.
2. there are some things i'm required to know about and be responsible for that i haven't yet been informed about.
3. although this meeting was full of first year teachers, we spent minimal time discussing requirements for first year teachers. the essential info was discussed at the end of the meeting and we were not given time to talk with our mentors about it.

would i be happier doing something else.... living somewhere else.... with less responsibilities... even if it means having less pay?

what is happiness?
is it having friends and family? is it having a job that pays well? is it being financially stable? is it being accepted? is it having wonderful, meaningful experiences?

people can't be happy all the time. there are mountains and valleys. everyone knows that.

i need to relax. i need to be content with where i am. i need to focus on the positives. i need to breathe and cry and get back on track.
i can do this.... but do i really want to?