recently, i've had an overwhelming awareness of the fact that i'm a young person pretending to be an old person. perhaps even now, as i watch a marathon of all of the harry potter movies, i realize that i have one foot in both worlds.

i can tell that i'm very sensitive. i don't have the thick skin that teachers have to have. i look at my colleagues and i'm envious of how mature they are. they don't seem to be affected in the same way i am. i suppose after this year i will be able to take on many crazy situations without it ruining my entire day/weekend/month. i think i'm getting better at it though.

two students lied straight to my face on friday. they cheated and lied. i gave them a few opportunities to tell me the truth and they didn't. on monday, i will explain to them that cheating and lying are not acceptable behaviors and that it won't be tolerated. i will be calm and collected and i won't let my emotions get out of control. of course, i will give them another chance but, in reality, i shouldn't. why can't they just do what they should do and give me a break?

i paid my cable/internet bill late this month. not because i don't have the money... i just completely forgot.

i have a lot of growing up to do.